Sunday, 26 February 2012

  • Feeling lost in my own world.

    It's tough when you're trying but no one seems to care about your efforts. To make things worse, some even put you down, instead of giving support and encouragement. 

    I think about how hard it is, and think maybe it's time to leave. But if I really do, wouldn't that be equivalent to giving up? I know it's hard, but I keep telling myself that I'm already in it, I'm almost there, and I shouldn't give up. However, nothing's giving me the morale to want to continue.

Saturday, 21 January 2012

  • NICOLE WONG KIKI. ♥

     

    Met WONGKIKI this afternoon for the last time before she leaves for Canada tomorrow. (Better study hard there and not eyecandy all the hot angmoh guys okay HAHAHA.)

    I'll miss you terribly. :( In fact, I already have, for the past half a month. :( 

    Schoolmates for 11 years, from Fairfield Primary to Secondary, and then to JJ. We had so many memories together. 

    We were never in the same class in Fairfield Primary but we knew each other since I joined Chinese Dance in Pri 2. Awesome times we had then with the rest of the dancers, like Jessica, Allinda, Vanessa... 

    We were kept close after Primary School all thanks to Dance again in Fairfield Sec. I remember being super indecisive, undecided between Choir and Dance. Chose Choir, but so glad I transferred to Dance. If I weren't in Dance, our friendship could've been a lil' different?

    We were finally in the same class, 3B, 4B. Had many awesome times together. 

    Then coming to JJ together, we didn't hang out very much but travelled to school together when I started taking public transport. All those chitchat sessions on the train and rushing to school everyday. Hahahaha. 

    We aren't and never were best friends. I don't know how much I mean to her but she's someone special to me. (Yes woman, you are. :D) I like how we're able to talk about everything and anything, and you're a good listener. I hope you'll do fine over there in Canada; hope everything will be great. 

    PLEASE REMEMBER NOT TO BE ANTI-SOCIAL AND MAKE FRIENDS. This crazy Kiki was telling me that I should've written "Ways to Make Friends" in the card I made for her. LOL seriously manzzz. Anyway yes, I made her this card that I had to rush through like crazy because I was so busy and all. Finally finished it at 2.30am today. Nonetheless I think it turned out quite nicely. :) 

               

Sunday, 08 January 2012

  • Wait, it's 2012 already?!

    Wow, it's been 2 months since I posted. 

    IT'S THE LAST DAY OF MY HOLIDAYS. School starts tomorrow. I need to start getting nervous for my A Levels. Not that I haven't but yeah.

    Last year passed really quick, and this year will probably pass even faster. Nonetheless, I hope it'll be an eventful one. Had a great start with Zoey, Penny and Zhi Guang. :) 
     

Saturday, 29 October 2011

  • Surprise surprise.

    Thursday morning I awoke, the first thing I heard was a voice that said, "Your fate is gonna be determined today, Su May." I jumped out of bed, pretty startled. I was going to be late. Daddy was to drop me off at Tiong MRT Station so I had to be a little earlier. Hate to rush for the train, the bus, etc. 

    Got to school and sat in the hall, wondering why time was passing so slowly. "Su May," I heard Joel's voice.

    Looking at him with my sleepy face, he asked, "Your parents are coming today? My mind gave a sigh.

    Joel changes things. "You got promoted."

    My systems started up and I felt more awake. "Huh? What? How do you know?" I was confused. 

    "Your name is in the Revision Lecture List. YOU. GOT. PRO-MO-TED." Joel gives a soft smile. 

    I got promoted? Wait wait wait. I was still confused. Because I wasn't promoted, that's for sure. I could only get advanced. Okay I guess it kinda means the same thing, in the sense that I'd be in J2 next year. 

    To be sure, I went to Ms Chan after Morning Assembly. I asked if retainees would have to attend the Revision Lectures. She said no. And reiterated, "If you are going to retain, your name will not be in that list." I nodded slowly, letting my brain process. I must have looked like I was in a daze, because as I was about to turn away, she added, "Your name is in that list right? So.." HAHAHA. We both gave that "HAHAHA I know, you know." look. 

    That was awesome, because I was so relieved the entire day. Couldn't imagine having to be kept in suspense the entire day. The second thing that made me really happy was that Laoshi said that I didn't have to attend Chinese lessons before results are out next year because I apparently made the grade! Best news ever. 

    However, there was one thing that got my mood spoilt. 

    During the session with the HOD of English, she told my parents and I that the comments from teachers about me were that I’d disappear or take early leave whenever there is a make-up lesson in the afternoon. Screw that short fag. He’s the only teacher who calls for make-up lessons late in the afternoons and I have only missed twice with valid early leaves. That stupid troll is seriously always against me. I'm thinking why I even bothered to go all the way to school at 4pm on at least 2 occasions where there was his make-up lessons when his lessons don't benefit me. At the end of the day, he claims I disappear whenever there are make-up lessons. Freaking pissed off. He'd better not teach out class anymore or it'll be hell again next year. >:(

    Things are gonna be really different next year without Dingydingz. :( 

Monday, 24 October 2011

  • I've to note,

    that I should never, EVER, comfort myself with the existence of a small glimpse of hope. Because time and again, the small glimpses of hope are dashed, and I get knocked over. 

    I was pretty sure the chances of getting advanced were slim, but people tried to get me to look on the bright side, assuring me that I should be alright with 2 H2 passes and would probably get Conditionally Promoted. Little did I know or expect I'd fail GP. Compre was bad, but my essay was even worse. It's the worst grade I have ever gotten for an essay. It's awful. I feel terrible. Without a pass in GP, what Conditonal Promotion are we referring to here? 

    Sigh. I think I'm in a pretty sorry state. Imagine passing 2 H2s and 1 H1 for Promos, yet still have to be retained. Honestly speaking, no matter how bad I did for my earlier 40%, if I can pass Promos, I don't see why I shouldn't be given the chance to be advanced? I mean like Promos are the test of the whole year's work, no? 

    Well actually, I guess it was luck, or God's work. I prayed really hard about everything for Promos. I kept praying before Promos, during Promos, and even after Promos, I was still praying and hoping. I kinda kept thinking it was the end and all that, but I persevered on and continued to fight through the entire exam, and amazingly, by God's grace, I passed Chem, and Physics, the two subjects I thought I was done for. 

    However, though Physics did give me a pleasant surprise, I guess I'm not that lucky for Physics as compared to Chem. My pass wasn't good enough to pull my overall to a pass, or I wouldn't be in this risky situation.

    The "luck" just kept coming. But suddenly stopped short. The hurricane is coming, I can sense it. Daddy and Mummy are asked to go down to school on Thursday afternoon "to meet school leaders who will inform if you will be advanced or retained." I don't have a good feeling about it. Not at all. I don't know why but the fear has just started to kick in. I am laggy indeed. I better pray and hope hard. Hopefully, a miracle can occur. Well, God does wonders, doesn't He?

     

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